I am feeling

Onward and multi directional

I am realizing I am pain

That sits with the Circle

And unlearns Mother’s teachings

mischief?

No goblins now

just orcs with jobs to do

and slit-finding knife tang words

in our Grandfathers’ backs

my future?

In friends’ hands

Like she did mine make

the lovers’ hearts

snap and vanish

Am love?

only if

a One

could me

There is at least one boy who prayed that his wedding would be misunderstandings interrupted by obsessions but instead found every moment with her as certain as the river stones and sea glass she polished from his bones with appreciation alone.

There is at least one man who stares at the cornflower mountains overlapping infinite and whistling, with palms on the head of a dog, smelling the coffee sharp and campfire breathing calmly deep over the red knuckled blind fire in his chest.

There are at least two people falling in love through prison breezeblocks, describing their favorite meals with empty bodies, and talking about the beauty of adolescent summers or what color their eyes are, but then, suddenly dying together with great clarity, as the times they should have and could have, fade.

There is at least one woman architecting the elimination of one million people she has never kissed and it luckily guts her when how easy the numbers change remind her of dancing in the coral reef wave she daydreams existed in Polaroids of her mother.

There is at least one girl who wishes her fatal car accident was a musical where the firemen would cradle the back of her neck and croon in harmony, “It’s over now, you can stop triple-checking if he still wants you. You don’t have to ever again feel like being out of control of everything is better medicine than controlling yourself.”